and they won't go away

and i'm freaking the fuck out

i just broke my acoustic guitar in half, i'll probably light it on fire later

no one wants to hear me complain, and i'm too afraid to say anything stupid so i never say anything

no matter how hard i try they won't go away

i study at school and i still fail, i try to ignore but i can't, i practice as much as i can at something and it never comes

ever

i keep hitting my hand on the wall and it really really hurts

ow

but it helps me calm down

i've since just started randomly yelling now, at any given time i'll just scream and then i'll go back to normal

and nothing helps, talking to someone doesn't help, ignoring it doesn't help, being told by people on the internet "aww it'll get better" doesn't help

lol, then why am i posting this, right?

nah, i'm doing it because i need time to kill, after all, i've been sitting in my basement for the past 5 days, haven't gone to school, haven't gone outside, i've just sat here, and at my xbox, playing games, because it's the only thing that keeps me almost content, because it doesn't involve having to face people every day, people who if i get one dirty look from even if they don't mean it i think hate so i'm depressed for the next week

no, i'm not joking, people usually think i am

well since doing this automatically makes me an attention whore, i guess we can't talk about it, like that helps anyway

so instead, who else is excited for guitar hero world tour in 11 days?

but too bad, i don't play guitar hero. i suck.

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yes we can. :]