That was REALLY hard for me to read, and I'm Dyslexic so that's saying something... Anyway, don't worry to much about it. I'm 99.998% sure its not really love. Which means you will be able to get over her if it should end.
My advise, just kiss her. Shes your girlfriend shes probably expecting it, and if she breaks it off because of pressure from other people then shes not worth it.
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My opinion of you is based entirely on your avatar.