You're not wrong to feel like you do, no. It's easy to get bogged down, especially in university, and really start to not want to wake up in the morning. I get like that quite a bit. Things 'get worse' in university usually because it's the first years of really striking it out on your own, so it's balancing finding places to live, paying rent, cooking and cleaning with school and also the complications of friendships and relationships. It's a different set of problems than what most experience in high school.
You're not nothing. It's easy to feel like that, just another number, but it's not like that. To those who know you, you matter. You may not be universally known, but you are known. People will care, you just have to make yourself known to them. You have your own unique personality, set of skills, and characteristics that make you you and irreplaceable.
Sometimes it takes awhile to find that one right person for you. But you also have to put yourself out there a bit. You don't have to throw yourself at people, but the best thing to do is to be yourself and let that be seen by others. Someone will notice, and appreciate that---and it will probably be when you're not thinking about it. I know waiting sucks; I'm in that stage now myself.
You can't escape all your problems. The only thing you can do is conquer them--and you can. Make a list of the things you have to get done this week, and break it down into a manageable load. Then set short-term goals, for the next two weeks or so. Then long-term goals. Shape your life into the way you want it to be. Find stuff that makes you happy and do it. Find people you're good friends with and hang out with them. Live your life the way you want.
I'm sorry to hear about the girl at your work. There wasn't anything really that you could do at the time; when grief is really fresh, people's reactions are different. But, you can make it a bit better. Go pick out a nice card, and write her a really thoughtful note, and send it to her, just to show that you care. It will help, and you might not know how much.
If you don't like your job, I suggest you look for a new one. Life is short, and I'm sure after searching you can find a different one. In the meantime, try to make it as bearable as possible. Find things to like about it, even if they're small ones.
It's terribly hard to deal with people you've really been crazy about, or in love with. I still miss my ex-boyfriend sometimes, and whenever he changes his msn status or something I still feel a pang. But I can't let it get to me. I have a life to live, and I have people to meet and befriend, and some to fall in love with along the way. So do you. I'm assuming that she didn't really know how you felt, or she wouldn't have done that to you. There's someone out there for you, and you will find her. She's looking too, and she's probably feeling much the same as you are now. Keep that in mind, and try thinking about it when you feel down.
Don't abandon your life, because you can really make it a beautiful one. Give it a try. Show people who you are, and live in the life you've imagined.
I wish you all the best.
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