I've always hated how I look act and the things I do but Ive never been able to change them no matter how hard I try. Today i found my prom video burried in a draw this war a year ago (i havnt changed much) as i watched this and watch myself i wouldnt let myself think it ws me i was watching and as i finaly let my self think and know it was me I started getting sick and panicy to the point i almost threw up. The girl i went with was just a friend and she always had a fake smile the whol time and i was always wicked sie but usualy at work i was never sie with he or ne one else that went with us through the movie i was and then i remebered i was sie that whole night. i want to change myself so much but i just seem to not be able to im in college now gonna be 19 soon and ive never had a GF or even kissed a girl b4 im a bit fay have 'bitch tits' (steroids from asthma) bad eyesight so i dont have a drivers permit or license nothing of that sort no job ATM and i getting low on funds and even lower on self confadence or w/e. I go to class never really talk to ne one becuase im afread to talk to new people and im wicked shy but yet if I work somewhere or in HS i was never shy in or out of class except with the ladies...
well idk i guess i just had to post this becuase it seems so wrong that i would get that sick and scared watchin myself in my prom video. idk if i want advice someone to jsut comment idk..
thx
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