I found out they absolutely despise me...at least a good handful of them.  

what is bad about it, is that I don't know why...

I am completely honest with them, I don't tell them any lies, and I'm completely up front with them.  If I have something to say about someone, I tell that person.

and if something is on my mind, I'll be honest about it.

If I get confused about the conversations(which is very often), I admit it.

yet now some of them are trying to make others "ditch" me when I show up at the table.  

I don't know what I did wrong, if I did something wrong.  I don't think they're bad people, though some are questionable.  I just think they're all unique in their own way.

I'm going up to the table tomorrow and issue a formal statement to the group, or at least wait until the next club meeting.

I'll say "if you don't want me to stick around, I'll leave the table dweller's group and the Realm Runners Club(which is a college funded club), in hopes that I incite no malice against anyone."

I don't mind some of the club members hating me...I just don't want them to all of a sudden feel obligated to put up with me.  sure, the club is a college funded club, therefore they cannot refuse me at any event.  However, I was a loner before them, and I would rather be a loner than to cause tension.

...I don't even know what I did wrong.  I know I'm a clutz at times, and at other times, I'm so confused that I just outwardly admit it and just move onto another conversation by other group members.

But if me being me is what the problem is, I can't change who I am so someone will like me.  I'd rather be alone again.

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Love is not mine to have, nor to be shared with me...
May I find love in the next life...