I really don't feel like using AIM.

And I should take a shower....but I really don't feel like moving.

And I'm in a really weird mood.

It's Saturday night and, like every other night, I'm sitting at my computer because even if I had somewhere to go out, I probably wouldn't want to.

It all boils down to fixing my life situation, which sucks right now...but it's so fucking hard with everything new that keeps being added.

And I keep being reminded that giving up on all of it really would be the easier solution. Not one I can use, really, but it's true that it would be. Unless I fucked things up. In which case I really think the only difference would be that all the abnormalities I keep hidden would be out there in plain view. Not necessarily a bad thing, as I don't like secrets very much. Nonetheless, I don't need to have that stigma following me around, too.

I just want something genuinely interesting to take my mind off this. And nothing seems to be available.

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Sweetheart, people aren't chocolates. You know what they are?
Bastards. Bastard-coated bastards with bastard filling.

"Its a Saturday night and I aint got nobody. Im _______ and theres no place to go"

Can't remember whole thing

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Im on the top as long as the musics loud!

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There is a good song.

"Its a Saturday night and I aint got nobody. Im _______ and theres no place to go"

Can't remember whole thing

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I got some money cause I just got paid
sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to
I'm in a awful way....

I think. I might be mixing two songs. Blah.

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Sweetheart, people aren't chocolates. You know what they are?
Bastards. Bastard-coated bastards with bastard filling.

if your want advice on what to do with the life situation, just keep working at it.  Sometimes things take a while to sort out, just keep putting effort into it.

BTW, i think most everyone has been in that kinda mood before.

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"I'd never forgive myself if i tainted perfection"
~Me