well i donno how i can say this so that i wont cry doing this, but the feelings that i am holding as of right now, can no longer remain inside me, i mean you guys whom read my post, have only seen me talking about my relationship issues that i am having w/ my bf. however how can you explian feelings that you have for a friend, a friend who is about to die, not to longer ago living and enjoying life, and one bad move causing him to become on the edge of death. i mean i never thought i would care so much for this one person, cause we started off hating each other, too talk to each other everyday to crying and sharing deep pains and worries.
i mean this thought of loosing him hurts me everyday we talk about it, i mean i know we must all die someday, however his death will hurt the worse. he is the only friend i got, i mean he always puts a smile on my face, each time we talk, he never leaves my side. he never judge me. yet we do fight like greatest enemies, but yet we allowed ourselves to look pass our differences. i mean they was he writes to me is a sign of fear, and no worries, fear of his on death, and telling me not to worry.
i am sorry if this might be a boter to you all who might decide to read this, but these our my feelings and i can't eat nor sleep, cause thinking about what can happen to my dearest friend.